Regrets

Just now talked to Precious mei again...I guess, she's a bit like me in the sense that she's a little pessimistic...but I know she's very...'fragile'...I don't want to keep making her lonely,sad and bring her pain every time I talk to her...I want to comfort her, but all I'm doing is making her feel worse than before I talked to her...

She thinks that it's better for both me and mummy w/o her...Like me, and many others...aren't we assuming a little too much?

She also keeps harping on those words...Those painful words I so badly regretted saying... those words which left unsaid, could've still salvaged our relationship... I guess, she's also a little stubborn... but who isn't? I think I was too...harsh with her...she could've still had one more, or two more people to comfort and care for her...

I think...this is the first time I've regretted something so much. I really miss the times I spent with her...the way we cared for each other as 'siblings'...I wonder... is it still possible...to repair whatever is left of this friendship...? Certain things...just hit harder than expected...and we never appreciate...if we had never lost...and then...there will only be regrets...